The Issue or: The Fundamental Reason Why I am Having a Hard Time Ending things
by ME

Its about human touch and family. I know this sounds pathetic but I feel really quite lonely right now. None of my family is nearby and I am not the kind of person who is very touchy feely with other people who aren't family. SO I want that intimacy of hugs and that feeling of family, but the only person here i get that from is Allan. It is nice to have someone to come home to, someone who will hug you and tell you things will be ok. Someone who worries when you don't come home.

Of course it is all a lie because the love is gone so it is a warped comfort zone.
ARGH!!