So tonight I think about him.
Why is he so bitter.
Why can't I tell him?
How long has it been?
Why can't I even tell someone else who knows us both?
Trust issues? Yeah, I've got a few.


In other news; I need to start to like myself and want better things for me or I will kill myself. Not in some slit my wrists kind of way but in an apathetic kind of not taking care of myself end up with diabetes, and cancer kind of way.